Friday, 25 January 2013

The World Racers

God is good, all the time.
All the time, God is good.

I am blessed.
I feel blessed.
God is so good to me.I thank Him even now as I sit here typing into this blog that I suspect anyone ever reads.
My Brickfields College Christian Fellowship has been a blessing.
It's wonderful to have people who are on fire, and burning, with passion for God.
Hanging out with these people motivates you to do better in your walk with God too.
And I love the 'invisible' bond that I feel when I'm there, spending time together, seeking God and resting in His presence.


Today we had the world racers visit our fellowship.
Well, just briefly, if you don't know who the world racers are, they're a group of, I like to call 'youngsters' *laughs* who goes on this program where they visit 11 countries in 11 months and all the while ministering to people as God leads them.
So basically they came up front to share about their life experiences with God
 yada yada.
I'm sorry but I wanna get to the point, something which I really would like to save here for my future self to see, and anyone else who stumbles upon this page.

In one of the sharing sessions, I sat down with this awesome girl, Brandi, who shared about her life stories with me.
She just starts with how everyone else in her team says' Oh I hear God, I hear God'
And how she hears nothing,absolutely nothing!*laughs*
*So totally me!*

And she continues on with how God just worked in her one day when she sat down in silence and wait upon the Lord.
As God started pouring out all her past hurts and reminds her of the people she need to forgive in her life.
And all the brokenness and the hurt that she has to lift up to the Lord, and to just forgive and forget.
Which God later guided her in the "forgiving process", and now she has found so much freedom in God.
'So much, just so much.'She repeats..
Now, she hears Him, the  path and the communication link to God has been cleared.
She can HEAR GOD!!!

*wow I find I'm quite good at narrating.laughs*

You can read more about her ordeal here 'He's Not Finished with Me Yet" 

Back to the main point.
I also want to hear God, and I also know why I can't hear.
'When you don't forgive, the gates of heaven are shut tight'
Then I realise I should do this too.
I should start to just sit down and wait in silence and ask God to point out the specific people and events in my life that I have to forgive, and forget.
And to just pour out and surrender all the hurt, the brokenness that I might find freedom in Him, just like Brandi did.
And that I should live a life free of anything that is holding me back from having a wholesome relationship with my Father in Heaven.
So much to do, eh?
I find myself a little scared of the process, and a little weak.
Like, am I able to do this?

But then again, I'm reminded that if God chooses for me to do this, then He will see me through.
He will be with me.I will win the battle, through Him.
And we will,( My Father and I) will win this battle and come out stronger than before.

So Dear Father, do you hear me?
We are going to start this process.So lead me, guide me, draw me close to You each day I pray.

On a side note, this song, that we sang today in the worship has been playing in my mind again and again.Gonna share it here ;)

"I Will Follow"

Where you go, I'll go
Where you stay, I'll stay
When you move, I'll move
I will follow...

All your ways are good
All your ways are sure
I will trust in you alone
Higher than my sight
High above my life
I will trust in you alone (trust in you alone)

Where you go, I'll go
Where you stay, I'll stay
When you move, I'll move
I will follow you
Who you love, I'll love
How you serve I'll serve
If this life I lose, I will follow you, yeah
I will follow you, yeah

Light unto the world
Light unto my life
I will live for you alone
You're the one I seek
Knowing I will find
All I need in you alone, in you alone

Where you go, I'll go
Where you stay, I'll stay
When you move, I'll move
I will follow you
Who you love, I'll love
How you serve, I'll serve
If this life I lose, I will follow you
I will follow you, yeah

In you there's life everlasting
In you there's freedom for my soul
In you there's joy, unending joy
And I will follow

Where you go, I'll go
Where you stay, I'll stay
When you move, I'll move
I will follow
Who you love, I'll love
How you serve, I'll serve
If this life I lose, I will follow

Where you go, I'll go
Where you stay, I'll stay
When you move, I'll move
I will follow you
Who you love, I'll love
How you serve, I'll serve
If this life I lose, I will follow you, yeah
I will follow you, yeah
I will follow you, yeah
I will follow you, yeah

Tuesday, 15 January 2013

Shortsy #2

So far my walk with God has been inconsistent.
Again, I'm sharing it here.
I kinda feel like I'm very luo so, repeating grandmother's story.But what- to- do, memang I'm weak.
Like I want to do it,I just am not able to, yet.

So I wanna just post some little quotes here, extracted from all my past devotion.

In future when I scroll through all this again, I might be reminded of His love.

'When I lean on my own understanding, I feel shaky.Help me submit my questions to You, and to trust that You have everything under control.I have a choice when I don't get a satisfactory answer to why somehting happened.I can choose to allow frustration to grow into distrust, or to submit my need to know why to You.'

1 Corithians 10:13

13 No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it.

Matthew 6: 19-21

19 “Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moths and vermin destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. 20 But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moths and vermin do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal. 21 For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.

'Nothing happens to you except by the will of God, and yet beloved children curse it because they do not know it for what it is.'

Isaiah 55:9
“As the heavens are higher than the earth,
    so are my ways higher than your ways
    and my thoughts than your thoughts.'

Friday, 11 January 2013

Shortsy #1

If you ask, what is it that I find so attractive in other people, I'm gonna steal this one sentence from my daily devotion author.

'What I have found to be most attractive is a person’s God-blessed passion, their love for the Lord and how that is expressed through their actions.'

Friday, 4 January 2013

The Plan 2013

Today, eventhough it's the fifth, lol.I'm kinda like late in planning for everything lol.
Ok, today I've decided I shall follow the programmes of following the bible through a year.
Does that sound familiar to you?
Rest assured, this time, I'm determined.
I know I know, my whole life, of 19 years and never once have I finished the whole bible from cover to cover.*ashamed*
And yesterday in my Christian Fellowship in College, there's this one guy who reads the scriptures off his head!!!!!*respect*
So, I'm following through a plan to at least read.
Memorising will come later, when I need
Now I just need to start reading.
It's the New Year, people!
And it's not too late!Just past five days.haha

Most Christians have never read the whole Bible, God's love letter to them. Wouldn't it be exciting to say that you have read every verse of scripture that God wrote to you?

Doesn't this rings a bell in you head?
Well, it did.I know of the fact, but it has never been directed to me like that before.
The bible is God's love letter to us.All the more why I should start reading.
(This is extracted from one the christian websites that I was visiting.So I hope they dont think that I infringed their copyrights.
Anyway, it's called sharing)

Today's Thoughts

I shall just share here, from what learn in Girlfriends in God, a devotion that I now follow.
In a way, Girlfriends in God connects the real world to God's word.
And it has got that girl element in there, even the name of the devotion suggests it.
I'm a feminist, what to do;-)
Anyway, this is more of a reminder for myself than for you.
So that when I look back, I know the assurances God has sent me all along the way.=)
So many times in my life, when I got frustrated with things surrounding me.
I get so stressed up, everyone around me feels it.It's like I'm radiating stress.
I know right, dahlah takbagus, simpan untuk diri sendiri cukuplah kan, tapi nak radiate pulak.
What to do, I'm always like that.
When I can't see the road in front of me, because my path is so heaped with mountains and mountains of current circumstances, I forget that God has a beautiful plan in stored for me behind these ginormous mountains.It's like udang sebalik kuey teow!Aha!

But Isaiah tells us something else,

His ways are higher than our ways and His thoughts higher than our thoughts,(Isaiah 55:9)

I know right, how many times have you read this verse?But have you really sat down and ponder what does it even mean to you?

How does it even apply to your life?

I still remember when I finished my primary school and was about to start secondary school.

And the person in charge actually sent me to the 'worst' school in town!
I was hoping for the better one, in my neighbourhood.
I mean, everybody knows that there is this better school and the not so good school in Bandar Kinrara.
Comon, it's a fact.Everyone knows.
So all auntys actually try their best to persuade the headmistress to send their kids to the better school.
My mother followed suit, she even went to the Kementerian Pendidikan Bahagian Selangor(or some fancy name like that) to transfer me to the 'better' one.
I had good results, my mother went to the highest authority, and even asked a friend, who works in the department to help me transfer, and yet, my transfer-ship is not allowed.
This means, I'm stuck in the 'suckiest' school ever.
And I couldn't stop complaining for all the years I was there!

'But God turns pain into purpose, the misery into ministry, and devastation into anointed messages of hope and restoration.'

Ok, I'm not sure if my life has been a ministry to the others or has brought hope and joy to others, 

But one thing's for sure, after four years of studying in that school, the very fifth year, I was elected as the Head Prefect.
Now,not to brag or anything, but there.
You know how important it is right, to have something of value in your co-curricular activities cert.
And that's the highest point a student could get their whole life in a secondary school.
I know it's God's plan, because, it's the first time I think in history of that school that they elect a girl as HP, and a fair skinned one too!
I'm not being racist or anything like that.It's just a fact.
And God gave me a partner to share in my responsibilities as a HP.
It's therefore also the first that they have two HP working together.
So you see, God do have plans to plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.(Jer 29 :11)

And then later, when I realise how God has planned and put all these in place, and how I was blinded by current waves that surrounds my little boat, I felt guilty.

Like how stupid I was, after all the years of learning to trust God, of placing my faith in God, of all the verses that I read and memorised(well, it's actually for the competition in sunday school, nevertheless, i did memorise okay!) 
yeah you get the point.
After all that, and I still fail to obey His words, to trust Him.
To focus on Him.
Funny how we humans always repeat the same mistakes eh?

But Sharon Jaynes says it best

'Glory moments in difficult times are not dependent on our circumstances, but on our focus. Focus on the difficulty and God is difficult to see. Focus on God and glory seeps through the broken places. Difficulties become the bass notes of our life’s song, adding a depth and beauty not found in a life that hovers about middle C.'

Have you ever felt that the earth just comes crumbling and crushing down in front of your eyes, yet later you realized it was all in God’s perfect plan and timing for your own good?

Well, when I was rejected by all scholarships that I applied after my SPM, I kinda got angry with God too.
I was demanding Him, as to why He has not allow me at least one scholarship from the Goverment.
But I now know I don't have the right to question my God like that, my God who created the earth and me, my God who has my future planned perfectly in His hands.
So I'm still kinda struggling in my law studies now, but I'm gonna keep my eyes open for the biggest miracle that he has in stored for me, for my years in Brickfields, or my life as a lawyer later.=)

So I'm gonna end with this little prayer that I copied from the devotion which I find was helpful.

Lord, I’ll admit that sometimes I don’t like how the story of my life is going. There are some chapters I would love to go back and edit. But the reality is, You use it all. Even fairy tales have villains, darks forests, and big bad wolves. But I know, oh I know, how my story ends. “And she lived happily in the hereafter with the Prince of Peace.” I thank You for the storyline that gets me there.
In Jesus’ Name,amen.