Helpless

I just feel frustrated.
This emotion, of feeling like 'I just wanna lie down and do nothing' is bugging me again.
Of course, I've never really done it.
Life will just have to go on right?


But today is another one of those days, where I feel like sleeping through it.
Of course, the flu and the never ending running nose has got a part to play in it too.
It just adds on to the 'ARGHHHHH!'*scream* feeling,you know.
You just feel like screaming your hearts out!
And just let everything go.







Sigh.I know too well.
All the 'to-do'.It's just I can't do it, really.I can't do it, now.
*ahhhhhhhhh!*

He loves me, just because

I'm excited.
I think I may have found the answer.
That I don't need to do this and that in exchange for His help.
I don't need to earn His approval.
He already loves me, just the way I am.
I didn't need to fulfill everything on my 'to-do list' to be a Christian, to get Him to respond.
It's He who initiated this, it's He who reached out to me.
All I need to do was to respond.To love Him back, for His love for me.
I know my love will not measure up to His.
But that's what I can do.I can love Him for being God, and trust Him to do it.
The difference is this, it is not that He will do it.It is that He is doing it, already.
He is already helping me, guiding me, staying near to me.
When I say 'Lord, help to shift my eyes onto You'
It's affirmative of the fact that He is already doing it, therefore, help me realise it, help me to trust You now.
It's not of focusing on Him first, then expecting Him to let everything run smoothly.
It's the opposite.It's where everything is already in His hands, I just need to be rest assured of that.

I think it helps me to do the 'focus on God' thing, it is made easier.*cheers*
YESH!

Collateral Damage

Collateral damage can take place within our family when we've been hurt by something or someone else, no matter how long ago.

Because a parent made you feel unworthy of love, you lash out when your child doesn't eat the meal you lovingly prepared.

Because your trust was shattered by another, your loyal husband pays the price as his faithfulness is questioned again and again.

Because of negative words poured over your tender heart, you struggle to believe your value to God.

*Does it sound familiar to you?*

Collateral damage. All of it.

But, read this.

The fact that a child didn't eat a meal so lovingly prepared has nothing to do with a woman's value; it's just one of the many mom-things we get to tackle.

The fact that your trust was shattered by another just makes the gift of a loyal husband that much more sweet.

The fact that negative words were poured over your tender heart means the thousands of words etched in Scripture are that much more powerful because they redefine you, as seen and loved by your Heavenly Father.

God can turn the bad into good.In fact, He not only 'can', but He will.He intends for all good to come out of it, out of all the misery and devastation.Hold on to the race, you have not reach the end nor seen the bigger picture yet.

Dear Jesus, before today I pointed out the cracks, those superficial acts and behaviors that I've tried to patch over. But today I hold up my heart. You see the foundation of my brokenness. Thank You for binding up my wounds, for healing, and for my new journey to wholeness. In Jesus' Name, Amen.

(adapted from Encouragement For Today Devotions, by Suzie Eller)

Priorities

My devotion today:

"Now as they went on their way, He entered a certain village, where a woman named Martha welcomed him into her home” (Luke 10:38, NIV)


How many times in your life have you felt tired of running?
I don't mean to literally 'run'.
But run, as in running through your daily life, rushing to complete tasks and assignments.
Running against time.
One of my girlfriend had her blog named 'Running Against Time'.
How true that statement is.

But today, I realize, it is only true because my priorities aren't right.
In racing alongside the world standards and being caught up in the whirlwind of things-to-do, things-not-done, and deadlines! I  felt tired.
Tired of this concept, tired that I never had the time to rest, tired of all the burden weighted on me, tired of not having enough time, tired that 'time flies too fast for me to catch up with'

Amidst the race to being the 'all rounder' student, amidst the pressure that exams are building upon me, I made some wrong 'priorities'.
Placing my eyes only on the exam, and studies, I totally lose out on the bigger picture.
*Focus on God, focus on God!!!*
*Make time for God!*


I am slowly picking up the left behinds of my relationship with God.
Or rather, God finds me again, in the crowded-ness of my life.
I'm starting, afresh, anew in Him.
I am grateful that I am given a new chance everyday.
Everyday I yearn to be better.
He acknowledges that I am weak..
I know halfway down the road I might go off-track again.*the truth*
When I feel fed up with life, and come running back to Him, crying and asking for forgiveness for the 'all too well known mistakes' in my life, I know He will forgive me again and again.
Waiting patiently for me, reminding me turn back to Him.
I am not taking it for granted.
I am grateful for the chance,  of the blood shed on the cross for me.
I am thankful that He never gives up on me.
Everyday is a new covenant with Him, everyday I shall invite Him into my life.
Just like Martha, looking forward to His presence and running into His embrace.


Father, 
Help me to learn how to set my priorities in life, and put You first in everything.I want my life to reflect Your plans for me.Without You, I am nothing.I live a life of purpose.I commit every single day into Your hands, guide me as I continue to seek Your direction and wisdom.Thank you for Your unending love for me.
I love you, Lord.
Amen.